On Being Authentic~

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"Don't be fooled by the calendar. There are only as many days in the year as you make use of"  ...Charles Richards

So has everyone selected their power-word for 2012? 
Mine, after much thought,and retrospection,  is Carpe Diem (seize the f*cking day). 


2011 was a fail. I became one of those walking cliches that I try to avoid- "when I get a good job, life will be better" and "as soon as I get a car, things will start happening for me". And this mindset killed my spirit. Of course both are true and 100% on the mark, BUT, my mistake was playing the waiting game. Overwhelmed by the immensity of struggling through another year of running my ass off for shitty min. wage part-time jobs, getting myself and my kid around town on foot in all kinds of crap weather, I became discouraged, just sort of gave up and it became the year of slack! 
My eroding self-esteem made it nearly impossible to get over my psychotic dental phobia for some much needed dental work.
Pretty much my only priority was my daughter and helping her through these rapidly growing teen years. And if I accomplished anything in 2011, at least I held onto that. As all you moms out there know, there isn't anything that can prevent us from displaying a positive and optimistic outlook for the sake of our kids, even when we have to fake it at times. So we got through ANOTHER move to a cheaper (and nicer apartment), cause that's how I roll. But I'm truly sick of packing and moving that unless it's for a job or very cheap rent,  I am fighting the gypsy in me and we are staying put where we are for awhile. ( so I also proclaim this to be the year of NOT moving)  If I get the urge to move, I'll just rearrange my furniture or something).


My  life-saving, life-changing car is very close - So close. I can't help but feel happy and excited and positively euphoric. It is my life-line out of this sad, decaying town of unemployment, and I cannot wait.
And I want to thank each and every one of you who've been reading my blog and supporting my years of rants and bitching and whining and and working and saving pennies and  hoping for a car. Your encouraging and understanding comments have helped me make it to every crappy bus stop, whilst dragging my hatchling and groceries along. Standing in snowbanks and blazing heatwaves, waiting for off-schedule buses and being late for pathetic jobs.  
I never gave up hope and thus 2012 is The Year of the Car for me! And In the meantime, and every day leading up to and following the birth of the car....Carpe Diem !!!  2012 is going to be mine and my hatchling's year!!!


"Things are going to start happening to me now!!"...Steve Martin - The Jerk


Peace & wishing you all a wonderful 2012!!